It's been dark and gloomy the past few days. I've been nestling in sweats peering out my window at the rain. I get contemplative and a tad melancholy when skies are gray and I'm tempted to feel a bit sorry for myself, rehearsing my past pains and all the things that really haven't gone right in my life.
I think if we are honest with ourselves, we all have those moments where we think about our past failures, dashed dreams and wrongs done against us. Sometimes words that others say can inhibit our ability to move forward with our dreams and goals - the naysayers or the non-supporters or even worse, the critics. For some reason, these words and evaluations are especially hard to release. Our own failures are very hard to reconcile too and lay prey to our hearts bringing great shame and regret.
It's time to get it all out of your system! Remember how a few days ago I spoke about using your writing to "word vomit" all that's inside of you? Maybe a better term is "emotional vomit". Getting the emotional baggage out so that you can deal with it and move on. It's going to come out one way or another, this is a more constructive way of dealing with things than road rage or yelling at the phone solicitor or stuffing it in a pint of Ben and Jerry's Phish Food ice-cream.
In the past day, I've written at least 20 pages of thoughts to get some things that have been bothering me out of my system and to move on. It does us no good to stay in our past memories. They are just breeding grounds for resentments, un-forgiveness, self-pity and anger. These things keep us hostage and never enable us to move on with our lives in positive ways.
So next time you get a rainy day use it as an opportunity to cleanse your soul as God is cleansing the earth and spend a few moments writing down anything from your past that you are still having trouble reconciling. Get it all out there and then make a conscious decision to forgive whomever has hurt you, through word or deed. Don't forget to forgive yourself and God too while you are at it.
It's time to move on and recognize that all the failures in the past are over - maybe you could have done things differently, but you didn't. Yes, it would have been nice if you got the support you needed, but you didn't. Maybe you did deserve that creative award and it was held back from you - but it's ok. Move on and embrace what today has to offer without all the negativity from yesterday following you around. It's time to be free to cherish life.... to love ... to create and experience everything with passion and fresh vision!